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stardust holiday
chronicles of the chronically (and voluntarily) bedridden

end of day six

25 February 2006
still lonely, and recovering from some vertigo that felt like i was going to get dumped off the side of the bed, it was so bad i actually held onto the bed for a minute. blech, managed to not throw up, good, good, but i sure as shit felt like it. it hit me out of the blue.

mike brought me another plant today, so i have three plants (a money tree, a plant from his work that's been growing for about a year now, and a huge hanging plant that i can't wait to put up. or, have someone put it up for me) and a huge bouquet of little white daisies from mike. its nice having plants around, and the best part is, is that when i get home, i get to take all these home with me and we'll start our little jungle.

i took my ambien earlier than usual, i could barely stay awake this morning. tammy had to come in and wake me up at least once. it took me a long time to fall asleep last night, mostly because i felt like i was in the middle of a waking nightmare. being stuck in bed, and i just wanted to get up and not be where i was. but all i could do was stare at the ceiling and think about going home. i hope this doesn't continue. it's bad for morale in camp erin.

however, my stomach is feeling a little better. but it's not completely gone.

i feel the ambien kicking in a little, so i suppose that's my cue to wrap up and call it a night. but i tell you what, the big long body pillow is no replacement for sleeping in the same bed as someone. doesn't even come close.
-sigh-


night night. seventy eight days left.
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3 Comments:
  • Hi sweetie,
    I know it's just me and I'm sorry the excitement of "new comment" wore off so quick.

    But I love you

    a lot


    A LOT


    and...



    that's it. That's the over whelming sensation.

    except... what's "ambien"?

    -squish-



    mike

    By Blogger Erin, at 03:24  
  • HEY ERIN. MY NAME IS BILLY.IM 33 YEARS OLD. I JUST SAW UR SPOT ON CNN AND I STILL KINDA HAVE MIXED EMOTIONS ABOUT IT. I , MYSELF WAS HIT BY A TRUCK GOIN 60 MPH WHILE I WAS WALKING 6 AND A HALF YEARS AGO. NEEDLESS TO SAY, IM PARALIZED. WELL, I HAVE WHAT THEY CALL INCOMPLETE PARAPLIGIA. WHICH HAS LEFT ME WITH NO MOVEMENT IN MY LEGS. BUT CHRONIC PAIN. UR PROBABLY WONDERING WHAT ALL THIS HAS TO DO WITH ANYTHING. I HAVE BEEN IN BED FOR 4 YEARS. NO GETTING UP NO GETTING LIFTED. I EXERCISE MY ARMS THE LITTLE I CAN WITH THERA BAND EXCERCISE RUBBER BANDS. JUST LYING FLAT ON MY BACK. I DONT GET UP ANYMORE BECAUSE OF CHRONIC PAIN. I HOPE UR BEING PAID VERY WELL TO DO THIS BECAUSE IF UR NOT. STOP. PLEASE. BECAUSE IF YOU DEVELOPE MUSCLE ATRAPHIE. IM NOT SURE HOW TO SPELL IT BUT ITS THE BREAKING DOWN OF UR MUSCLES.DO YOU GET EXCERCISE OF ANY KIND. ARE YOU ON A SPECIAL DIET. LIKE IF THE WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENS TO THE BODY AFTER BEING WEIGHTLESS FOR TWO YEARS. MY EMAIL IS THE_ATOMIC_BONG_73@YAHOO.COM AND MY YAHOO ID IS THE_ATOMIC_BONG_73. IM JUST PUTTIN THAT THERE NOW B4 I FORGET. MY I.D. AND EMAIL THAT IS. I HAVE PRAYED TO SEE THE OUTSIDE AGAIN BUT I WILL DIE LOOKIN AT 4 WALLS.MY WORST FEAR IS FINALLY GOIN INSANE FRON ALL THE PAIN AND BORDOM. I HAVE A LAPTOP IN MY BED TOO. AT LEAST UR GETTIN PAID TO DO THIS. I HAVE TO PAY THESE PEOPLE. IM LEFT WITH 30 BUCKS A MONTH. THATS NOT A TYPO. I SAID 30 DOLLARS A MONTH. MORE PEOPLE HAVE REACHED PROBABLY OUT TO YOU IN IN THE PAST WEEK THAN THEY HAVE FOR ME IN ALL THE TIME I HAVE3 BEEN HERE. I HAVE A MOM THAT COMES AND SEES ME ONCE A WEEK. THATS MY ONLY VISITOR, CALLER AND THE ONLY ONE THAT EVEN CARES IM STILL ALIVE. I DONT KNOW WHAT UR SITUATION IS IN THAT DEPARTMENT. YOU HAVE SOMEONE SUPPORTING YOU THROUGH THIS. MIKE I MEAN. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MARRIED LESS THAN A MONTH AFTYER MY ACCIDENT HAPPENED. MY FIANCEE LEFT ME 3 DAYS INTO IT. ITS REALLY DIFFERENT WHEN YOU CHOSE TO BE IN THAT SITUATION AND I HAVE TO STAY IN THAT SITUATION THE REST OF MY LIFE BECAUSE SOME .LADY HAD TO BE ON HER CELL PHONE DOIN 25 OVER THE SPEED LIMIT. SHE WAS NOT ARRESTED. CHARGED WITH ANYTHING OR NOTHIN CAUSE THEIR WERE NO WITNESSES AND I COULDNT DO NOTHIN ABOUT IT CAUSE IT WAS MY WORD AGAINST HERS. SHE GOT A SPEEDING TICKET. EVEN THOUGH SHE DIDNT HIT THE BREAKS TILL 20 FEET AFTER SHE HIT ME SHE GETS TO GO HOME EVERYDAY AND HUG HER FAMILY. I DONT. AND I GUESS SEEIN YOU IN BED AND VOLINTEERING FOR THIS KINDA BOTHERS ME. ITS NOT WHY UR DOIN IT THAT BOTHERS ME. I GUESS ITS THAT UR VOLINTEERING TO DO IT IT I GUESS. CAUUSE I WOULD GI VE ANYTHIG TO BE ABLE TO JUST GET UP IN A WHEELCHAIR. I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST ERIN. AN MIKE. IF SHE IS UPSET OR AGITATED SOME DAYS. JUST GIVE HER A HUG AND KISS AND LET HER KNOW THAT IT WILL COME TO AN END. ITS GONNA ONLY GET WORSE. TAKE CARE. UR NEW FRIEND, BILLY PS. FEEL FREE TO WRITE ME ANYTIME OR LEAVE ME AN OFFLINE MESSAGE ON YAHOO MESSENGER IF IM NOT ON THERE WHEN YOU ARE IF YOU HAVE MESSENGER. TAKE CARE. BYE. PEACE, LOVE AND DOPE.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 14:38  
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    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 08:14  
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